It has been an interesting year so far. Not all of it has been good – in fact, this year did not start out well at all. It’s getting better though.

In a post about looking forward, I have to look back a little bit.

Last year was possibly one of the best I’ve ever had. I had so many joys in my life, including and especially my group, Main Street. The joy the group – the people – gave me was beyond anything I’ve experienced before, although I’ve been involved in a few other groups in my day. Nothing compares to what we found together though. Our sound, our friendship. Amazing.

…things change. First we had a falling out with Knarf, which I won’t go into, but it caused a lot of damage. In retrospect I suppose it was this event that caused the rest of it to slowly fall apart. We stayed together, added accompanist Walt to our voices, and made it through the rest of the year. It wasn’t the same, but it was good. After Christmas though, Walt had to step back due to personal things he needed to attend to, and Main Street went into a sort of limbo. Through all of this, I really tried hard to keep things together, and look to getting back together with a new voice some time this year.

It wasn’t meant to be. Last week we finally agreed (me last, and very very reluctantly) that it was just not going to happen again for us, and Main Street was disbanded.

I won’t lie to you; this hurts like hell. I’m heartbroken. Even though I could see the writing on the wall… I tried so hard to believe we could make it. ShaMoo has moved on, and is doing well with another friend of ours who plays guitar, and I sincerely wish them both well. J-B and I still sing together in the big choir, and remain fast friends. This is the one saving grace in all of this mess; I still see J-B, even if we’re not singing in our own group anymore. I’d love to believe that one day we could be again, but… I know we probably won’t. One more heart ache.

Main Street wasn’t the only good thing in my life, but for a while it was one of the very best. I have memories that will be with me forever, and… I will get over this, eventually. Who knows, maybe I’ll start a new group again some time.

In the mean time, life goes on, right?

There are so many other great things in my life. On June 1st the Hubby and I will celebrate our 20th anniversary on a beach at a Sandals resort! We leave on Sunday, and I cannot WAIT. Sand, sun, kayaking, scuba diving… oh yeah, baby!

We’ll be gone for a week, and while I’ll schedule SHW as normal for Wednesday, I won’t be around to visit until I come back. There won’t be a GPM (guest post Monday) next week either, and think maybe I’ll put that on the back burner for the summer. J-B still owes me one, so maybe over the summer I’ll get that out of him :)

Looking forward to getting out and enjoying summer this year too! Maybe some camping, kayaking, hiking… and watching our new house being built! They haven’t even broken ground on it yet though, the weather has been so miserable this spring. Looks like we’ll be moving in after Christmas instead of before. Ah well. More time to think about colours and look at paint chips, yes?

Hope you have a wonderful week – I’ll think about you while I’m sipping exotic cocktails on the beach next week! Or, you know… not. ;)