…telling it like it is.
Is that a good thing, I wonder? My family and friends certainly know where they stand with me, but sometimes I think maybe I’m too much of an open book. Is a little mystery a good thing? “Familiarity breeds contempt” crosses my mind. I’m pretty sure those closest to me don’t need to know everything that crosses my mind. They probably roll their eyes when I start going on about how I’m feeling about every little thing.
Most bloggers are the type to let it all hang out though, so I guess I’m in good company?! What do you think, dear readers? Do I share too much of myself without thinking it through?
Feeling a bit introspective today, as you can probably tell. I’ve made a bunch of changes in my life recently, and most of them are working out really well. My eye surgery… notsomuch. Yes I know you’re probably getting sick to death and bored to tears hearing about it. I’m sick of whining about it too! But… it’s all-consuming for me. Literally. I’m really struggling with it, and this past week has been especially trying. The contacts Dr. Dipstick thrust into my eyes on Monday have screwed me up beyond belief. I can see my monitor a tiny bit better (which isn’t saying much), but everything else – and I do mean everything – is distorted. I’m seeing double, which is just so much fun I can’t tell you. This morning I burst into tears in the middle of doing a mundane task, and sat there blubbering like a child for the better part of 10 minutes. So glad I was alone… didn’t need Wee One to witness my meltdown. I’m just so frustrated. It’s still too early to take any action (and thanks for all the comments, commiseration, and suggestions, but I really do need to wait) and they tell me things may yet get better. I really don’t think so, and suspect I’ll be going through the surgery again come August or September. I dread it.
On a lighter note, I had the group over for dinner and rehearsal on Wednesday. Everyone brought something, and it was awesome. It was so nice to have them here! Love them to pieces. We really have so much fun together, and J-B makes the best pork tenderloin on the planet. No, I’m serious. I have great recipes for tenderloin, but his blows mine out of the water. Best part? He shared the recipe with us! What a sweetheart. ShaMoo made fab grilled veggies, and Knarf brought enough sweets to fatten an army, including a dozen cannoli because ShaMoo gave him a strong hint earlier in the week (“Frank, I want cannolis!!”) J-B also brought a really nice bottle of wine, and Knarf brought a gorgeous bottle of ice wine, which we didn’t end up drinking, but will be having this week when we join our accompanist and his lovely wife at their place for our next rehearsal. Just so happens that his wife recently had a BIG birthday, and we want to mark the occasion!
We stood around the island in my kitchen and did our rehearsal, which was also fabulous. Definitely a night where we were all “in the zone”. Sublime.
Having these wonderful people in my life makes bad things like my eye issues easier to bear. They know that, but it bears repeating.
We found out on Friday that we’ve been hired to perform at a Street Festival in June – this is a big thing for us! Our largest paying gig to date! This one day festival gets literally thousands of visitors. We’re very excited. We have one next weekend too – a community carnival – in another city. I just love having things to look forward to!
Since I’ve arrived at a bright spot in an otherwise morose, disjointed post, I am going to hit publish and get on with my day. I hope yours is going well!
P.S. if you’re on Blogger, and find I’ve suddenly disappeared from your “followers”, don’t panic! I’m still following you, but I cleaned out my old, unused/unwanted Blogger profile. You’re now properly in my Google Reader is all. :)
